mindfeck
ever known someone that immediatly makes you want to cry the second they leave? its bizarre. its not out of missing that person. something weirds going on and my mind hasnt yet caught up with it. ive been irrisponsible in the past but i dont think that makes any difference. ive seen and done but it doesnt make anything any easier. i feel 15 but with the responsibility of an adult and the need to be wary and careful about choices i make. i dont know if ive got a best friend ive shared everything with or someone that is potential boyfriend in the making. its an arse of a mindf**k and we’re back to square one… at least i am. the worry of losing something you rarely get is horrible the thought of someone else getting these moments hurts. youd think i knew what i wanted. but i dont, and i cant have everything.
